Ugh, I hate art block. Or whatever-the-hell this is. >> I just have zero motivation to draw. Or do just about anything. Heck, I'm surprised I can even be bothered to get out of bed anymore. Stupid depression. The other day it took me over 4 hours just to pick up a pencil and put it to paper. oO And whenever I do start drawing, I usually quit pretty soon into it. Just can't be bothered to finish, even if I like it. :/ And even though my hand is aching to draw, I just can't bring myself to. So don't expect too many new uploads. For a while, at least.
It's annoying, though, because I want to draw. It does help pick up my mood (if only briefly), and helps get out all my frustrations and stuff. And I can't get out right now due to poor weather (this wet British summer I wanted isn't as great as I expected), and ill health. Usually, when all else fails, I'd either go on my walk, or up to the graveyard, but that's not possible, so I need to draw to keep myself from totally loosing it. I dunno how to get my motivation back though. :/ It’s all very frustrating, and really doesn‘t help right now.
Also badly want to get back into writing, but I have even less motivation to do that, and I have no ideas, and fail at writing anyway, so that's pretty pointless.

Bah, I just noticed it's exactly a month until my birthday. ._. So don't want to be 21. Even though it's a far nicer looking number then 20. But still, getting old is no fun. Might not sound old, but when you have as little time left as I do, it's old. -.- So yeah, if we could all skip past August, that would be great.
Another reason to avoid August is going on holiday. My dad keeps pressuring me into deciding about going to Somerset this summer. Much as I want to go to Somerset again, I really don't want to, if that makes any sense. I just don't see the point in dragging myself over there just to sit in front of the computer as I would here. May as well stay put.

Mreh, someone please just shoot me now. Please. x.x