So.
My millipede decided to die.

No idea why. She seemed fine when I had her out to play over the weekend, but when I went to change her food/water last night, she'd died. :/
So I give up. Apparently I can't have anything that makes me happy anymore. Bleh.

I know it's just a stupid bug, and I didn't even have her long enough to bond much, but it's still kinda upsetting. I've just lost so much this year, and this is the last thing I need. x.x

Hell, one of the major reasons I convinced myself to even get her was so I had a reason to have to live, seeing as no one else would be able to care for her if I was gone. Guess that plan backfired pretty bad. -_-;

Shame it's not that easy for me to just curl up and die like she did. >___>

J finally did it. He finally died. O_______O!

Whenever I try to turn on the computer, I just get an error message saying the computer is currupted, or soemthing. o_O; It didn't have a virus or anything, so I've no idea what happened, but oh well. No more J. ._.

I doubt I'll be able to get any files or anything off of it, but thankfully I saved all my most important files onto a memory stick after the last time J messed up. So I'll only be losing some drawings/photos and stuff. Although I think I've lost all the poems I wrote last month. Which sucks, cause I'll never be able to remember any of them. Bah. :/

At least it's a good excuse to FINALLY get the new computer set up. xDD I got her at Christmas, and she's still in her box. D:
Although when I asked mother to call the computer guy to set it up, she refused cause it's her hair washing day. -_____- Hopefully it'll be set up by the end of the week.

So for now I'm stuck using the laptop, which is really annoying. u__u The colors on it are so bright and distorted, and the keyboard is just weird. @__@ But I did figure out how to plug the mouse into it, so at least I don't have to use the bloody touchpad. x__o

RIP J.

;_________;

I finally get my Giant Millipede on Wednesday! 8DD
The pet store we went to was out of stock, so they had to order one, so now I have to wait even longer to get my millipede. ;__; But four days isn't so bad to wait. x3
Although annoyingly, right after we found a store that did have millipedes in stock. x_o

I'm still surprised I've been allowed one, considering mother is scared of them, and my sister is TERRIFIED of them. xDD
It's only gonna be a baby one, though (3-4 inches right now). I hope it'll grow fast and not die, unlike a certain snail. e__e
Oh, and one of the stores we went to had the most massive African land snail ever. I wanted him. @__@

Anyway, I'll post pictures of my Millipede when he arrives. x3
And name suggestions are good, too~

And I've finally got photos of the foxes I watch at the graveyard, (very bad photos, but my camera isn't good for photographing at night.)

[link] [link] I /think/ this one may be the vixen, but I'm probably wrong. x3 She didn't notice me at all, even though I was just a few feet away with a camera flash going off. o_O; Multiple times she just stood or walked within meters of me and didn't see I was there.

[link] is Limpy. 83 Limpy doesn't like me, and refused to stay still enough to get any photos. u_u
He's called Limpy, cause he has a broken leg and limps badly. D: Although he can still run and jump etc. fine. o_o

They're so fun to watch. 83

Lol, just when I'd decided not to kill myself, (for now, anyway. e__e), I end up accidentally almost killing myself anyway. -facepalm- x__o

I was dead tired last night from barely having slept in a week, but I decided to watch some TV before going to sleep, as it was too early to go to bed yet. e.e But I accidentally fell asleep and didn't wake up until hours later.
Cause I wasn't on my medical pump, my blood sugar had already dropped so low I was all dizzy and shaky. .__o If it drops too low, I'd go unconscious and would die if I didn't get to hospital quick enough. And even then, there's still a high risk of ending up severely brain damaged, so yeah. Not fun. .-.

If the noise from the TV hadn't woken me up when it did, I might not still be here, as I was so tired I probably wouldn't have woken up in time. o_o;
Although I'm not sure if I should be glad or not that I woke up when I did. e__e;


Bleh, anyway, sorry for all the boring, depressive crud lately. -_- I've just never had to deal with stuff like this before, and it helps to have somewhere to vent. >__>

Oh, and I decided against getting a millipede. As much as I want one, I don't think I should get a pet I might not be around long enough to care for. :/

YES. 833
My snake finally got a new tank today (about 4 times as big as his old one. @__@) Anyway, now I have a spare tank, and mother said if I want I can get another pet to keep in it. 8D

I suggested a Giant Millipede, which mother is considering. 8DD! I've wanted one ever since I got to hold one when I was about eight, so yay!
The tank might be a bit small for one, though (12x12 inches I think?), but I can always get it a bigger tank if it outgrows it, or just get a smaller species of millipede. Either works. x3
Or I might get a praying mantis if I can find any. They're so cute. 83

Any other small pet suggestions that could work? (Reptiles or insects preferably. And the tank is specially designed for reptiles, with head pads and everything.) I can't seem to think of any others. .-. I would get more Giant Snails, but that didn't work out too good last time. x_o
Shame the tank isn't suitable for fish. I still really want some. D8

Whatever I get, I'll make sure I do lots of research before getting it. Unlike with JackSnail. xDD